I guess I am a wee bit early with my annual "what I learned post." Technically the year doesn't end for another 36 hours. But I would be shocked if I learned anything monumental in that time. Plus, who knows if I will have time to blog tomorrow?
The first part of this post is going to be difficult for me to write. As most of you have learned over the years, I tend to be a very private person. (I didn't realize how private until this past year.) I often have difficulty sharing personal information even with you, my dear friends. For example, when one of my friends brought by dinner after the baby was born, I literally broke out into a sweat talking to her. I had to take a shower after she left.
My behavior might seem odd sometimes, but this year I learned a little bit of why I act the way that I do. I know that we all have issues, and sometimes those issues come back to haunt us, especially during times of extreme stress. Well, this year was VERY stressful for me, so all of my skeletons came bursting out of the closet. I learned that I have an anxiety disorder and a few little OCD tendencies. Compound that with post-partum depression and you have a basketcase on your hands.
Why I am I telling you all this now? Well, first it is easier for me to write this out then to tell each of you face-to-face. Also, I am sharing this because I think it might help you to understand why I do the things I do. (For example, picking up the phone to call someone is terrifying to me. Always has been. I often think about calling all of you, but somehow I just can't. But I love to hear from you when you call, so feel free to keep calling. ;-)
Okay, enough of that self-exploration mumbo-jumbo!!
Here are the happy things that I learned this year:
* Rain, rain DON'T go away.
* Burping is a group activity. Trying to get someone else to burp can often cause you to burp.
* Digital cable is awesome! Now, if I had time to watch everything that I record. But that HD picture is SWEEEEEET!
* Sleep is overrated.
* Life interferes with the best laid plans.
* Time can fly; yet a day can seem like an eternity (especially when someone is screaming in your ear).
* I am a National Park/nature freak. I think I must have been a park ranger in my previous life.
* I won't be a technical writer forever. I am tired of no one reading my doc. You know who you are. (I admit I am guilty of playing with software without reading the doc unless I have to.)
* Being a Wolfpack fan can be quite tiring.
* I am so lucky to have so many awesome friends.
Happy 2008 to you!
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You should check out dooce.com. The woman who writes that blog gets very in-depth and personal about her issues with anxiety and post-partum depression. And its good to finally know why you never call me! :-)
Hey I always sweat when I share personal information with people! You're now part of the "boy this feels uneasy" club. ;-) I'm sure you and B have noticed my sweaty shirts! Its all good though, because it can be a stress reliever to share thoughts and feelings with a friend. It helps you to feel that you really are not alone, and perhaps others can empathasize with what you are going through.
Is empathasize a real word? Or did I just make that up? YES, I love making up words! Hence why I am a tester and not a doc writer!
Anyway, I'm glad you have learned a lot over this past year. Sometimes it takes something big to make a person learn a little more about life. Some of us are still learning.
I really like your posts and I look forward to 2008. I really do hope things start getting better and some of the stress goes away. If you ever want company or someone to talk to, never be afraid to call me. Heck, if you're not good on the phone, email can work too! :-)
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